February 2012
5 posts
Five months sober. :)
It’s quiet… I like that.
I thought that I’d have a problem finding certain types of situations out here in BFE, but in general, I was wrong. There are gay people within driving distance.
However, they’re not offering anything that I really want. I don’t want any new casual friends. I eventually want to start dating seriously and maybe finding someone special.
I now...
New connection rocks!
Well, so far, the new connection rocks.
I’ll be packing up and returning the EVDO tomorrow so that I can get a refund. :)
The EVDO solution for those of you that would need it is from BroadbandBlue (reseller of Cyberonic)… It was nice for what it is… but it fades in and out in my area beacuse Sprint is on drugs or something…
After messing with my MTU:
The new...
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Yay!
So, hopefully Monday, I’ll have a better Internet connection.
My main complaint of living out here was lack of bandwidth…
So, I found a solution from Cyberonic/BroadBandBlue… As soon as the package arrived and I started using it, another provider called me back telling me that they now have a tower up in my area.
I’ll be cancelling the EVDO service if the canopy/WISP...
Just random speed test...
Via USB:
Via Wifi Hotspot via phone from AT&T:
I think I might as well use the hotspot when it’s charging. :P
I’ll be getting another provider soon just for data. They claim no bandwidth cap. Let’s see if they work out. Otherwise, I have to wait another month for the better satellite service (12megabits down, 3 megabits up) that works on a quota system.
January 2012
9 posts
Only two things bad about living out here...
1) Lack of unlimited bandwidth… Turns out, I use about 500megs to 1gig a day for my normal use. I’m going to have to start taking time off of browsing and using the Internet until I get a better Internet service.
On that note, there’s only Satellite Internet or wireless from a cellular phone provider. Those have VERY low data caps, so I burn them out quickly.
There’s a...
I haven't made a blog post in a while. I feel odd.
I’ve moved into my parents’ house in zip code 77430. It’s quite a drive from Houston, but I think it’s the best idea for me for a while.
I’ll be going to my meeting tomorrow after work. I’ll drive to Houston every now and then.
My roommate and I weren’t getting along and he asked me to move out after I pretty much blew my lid at him.
I was giving it a...
#SOPASTRIKE
Tomorrow, my blog will be blacked out during the strike…
Please check out this URL and do the same if you maintain a site…
http://sopastrike.com/
Before I sleep...
I have been pondering the idea of moving back in with my parents.
There are many reasons for this, and the most of all is because of money. There are other reasons that I won’t get into publicly. However, I felt guilty for it, so I’m going to try to tough it out at least a couple more months. We’ll see what happens.
While I love living in Montrose, I don’t love the rent....
Dreams...
Lately, I’ve been remembering my dreams more vividly lately.
While I just remember them in bits and pieces…
Last night, I dreamt that I went to a concert with a friend… We ended up in a blue colored maze being chased by bloodhounds… They were huge wolves with red eyes… Anyway, we escaped them.
On the other side of the maze, was a grass pavillion, almost like The...
Ginger
Ginger… The neighborhood cat that has adopted us.
Infatuation, clarification of a recent poem, and...
Some clarification to prevent confusion or misunderstanding: The poem, if you want to call if that, wasn’t really directed at a singular person. I was just in the mood to ryhme and whine. :)
I think infatuation is a tricky thing. At the moment, I’m over it. :) … Almost as soon as I admitted it to the Universe via the journal/blog post, I believe that it lost its power.
I still...
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Sirens blaring
Sirens are blaring and keeping me awake…
Lust and insecurity permeating with every breath, I’m just hoping these thoughts would finally meet their death.
Going around in circles, it’s driving me insane. Moment to moment, they’re never the same.
Your eyes meet mine, this imaginary moment sends shivers down my spine.
I wait for that moment everyday… When for a split...
Happy new year.
I want to wish everyone a happy new year.
Each year, the celebration of the new year comes with the normal optimism for the upcoming year.
I’ve come down from the optimism high. I don’t know what I was expecting. I don’t think I was really expecting anything: just hoping and having a realization or a spark or anything.
After you have that rush of optimism and hope for a few...
December 2011
2 posts
Working on day 101 and a year in review...
This year has been amazing. I know it’s not over, so there’s a day or two left for more awesomeness.
:)
A lot has happened this year!
The good things: I’ve met some amazing friends, started to find faith again and I am sober. I finally visited California, and I still have a good job. My boss is very understanding and an amazing person… Just never tell him I said so. :P
...
Self-actualization
In my psychology class, we were asked if we knew someone who was self-actualized, if so… Who?
I paused for a moment and thought of many people that I’ve recently met.
A good many of them are indeed self-actualized.
They have realized they have a problem, are working on resolving it, and are working on becoming better people.
In existenial psychology, one main part of the idea is in...
November 2011
3 posts
There goes the ADD again. :P – 64 days sober …...
I meant to post, but every time I thought about it… I kept forgetting to do it before going to bed.
Anywho…
From and including: Tuesday, September 20, 2011 To, but not including : Wednesday, November 23, 2011
It is 64 days from the start date to the end date, but not including the end date
Or 2 months, 3 days excluding the end date
Alternative time units
64 days can be...
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The "system" is broken.
Last night, I shared that I was one of the lucky ones… Instead of worrying about things, I let it go and they seem to work themselves out in some way.
This blog post will seem like ranting, but it really isn’t… Just kind of venting.
While I may be enough to pay my immediate bills, I have no form of private investment for my future because of the bills that I currently have.
I...
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A really long and rambling post...
Ever since I started to attend meetings, I have had a better sense of well-being. At the moment is difficult to understand if I’d been able to do this on my own or not. Unfortunately, I do not think I could have done anything in regards to my sobriety on my own. A lot of people go into the program and are afraid because of the mention of the word G-d. Because of their fear, they leave the...
October 2011
2 posts
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:) Halloween :)
Halloween has always been one of my favorite holidays. Even though it isn’t Halloween yet, the season is definitely upon us. It’s the time where you can definitely see scantily clad men and guys running around, even in cold weather, other than during Pride. :P
Normally, I’d be out at the Renaissance Festival for the weekend. Rather than going this year and risking my sobriety, I...
