I’m not sure why I haven’t posted in a while, but I might as well give it a go. Let me start off by saying that this post will have a LOT of formatting. I’m testing out blogging via a word processor and email.
(Edit: It failed… So, removed a lot of the formatting.)
It’s my birthday. Well, it doesn’t feel like it since I haven’t gone to sleep yet… However, I don’t feel any different and I doubt that I will.
There are some changes that are currently going on in my life. One of them, I’m single again. I’m not on the immediate hunt for a new partner or anything yet. I have a lot going on at the moment. Between working on my portfolio, school, and work, it isn’t as if I have a lot of spare time.
So, I’m a year older… What have I learned in this year?
1) Be careful with my money, especially who or what I spend it on.
First off, I’m not going to support anyone in any way unless they’re family. I’m not going to do this to be rude, but if one thing out of my failed relationship has taught me anything, this has to be it. The rest of this paragraph was originally 251 words… I’ve decided to condense it to just this. I’m going to start cutting costs: this will include my cancelling my data card/hotspot device once I’m able to afford cancelling my contract. I can add hotspot to my phone if needed. I’ll also start watching what I spend my money on. I will be enrolling in a new study to quit smoking and hopefully the new study will work. After a loan is finally paid off (again), I’m closing the account or setting the password to something I can’t remember. Being in debt sucks, especially when your “roommate” doesn’t understand how bad it is.
2) Be careful with my heart.
I will not trust anything someone tells me at the beginning of dating or a relationship and I’m going to take a while to get to know them in full before making a commitment. While this may come off as bitchy, it really isn’t. There is nothing wrong with making yourself first, especially at the beginning of a relationship. If someone loves you, they should be able to understand that it isn’t always about them.
I’ll be guarded, but will let some trusted ones in. However, I won’t be giving my heart away to a stranger. I will still be my kind and caring self that many people have come to know, but I won’t be the guy who falls at the tip of a hat either. I should really be friends with the person and have them as a best friend before love comes into the picture. I wonder why so many of us have failed relationships. Could this be the main problem? :P
3) Keep in touch with friends
As stated earlier, I have some great friends. I need to keep in touch with them more… So, watch out guys and girls… :) I’m going to be either emailing, calling, IM’ing you, or at least dropping you a line on your FB wall. This might take a while…
4) Work more efficiently and meditate more
It’s rare that you’ll actually see me relax and do nothing but relax… So, I’m going to make it a point to take time out for myself. In the mornings, I’ll try to start waking up a little earlier so I’m not so groggy once I clock in.
I’ll schedule times to check my email and clear out my inbox, etc. I might even try using Google’s Priority Inbox thing. Hehe. :) I’m going to set aside at least an hour out of every day to do nothing or meditate. I know this seems like a waste of time, but from the time I’m awake to the time I go to sleep, I’m always doing something or thinking about something.
I’m going to start taking time to meditate. While it’s not really doing “nothing”, it will at least let me start winding down at times during the day so I can attempt to not get so burnt out. This will help me with work as well as with my general stress levels.
So, in conclusion for one heavily formatted blog post and one lengthy one, I’d just like to thank all of my friends and my family for being there… I know I’m not always the best person to be around, but I think that I’m one of the most loyal. I love my family and friends.
Edit: not so formatted post. :P